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I am definitely planning to make this website prettier! But I was suddenly in a rush to resurrect it after putting it on hold back in April 2021, and I’ve decided to build it as I go. I am trying to do it without page builders this time (spoiled by Elementor Pro!) to achieve Google’s benchmarks for speed, so it may look a bit clumsy as I get it to where I want it. Meanwhile, this is a rundown of what I’ve been up to in 2021 leading up to the launch of this new phase.
The Waking Up BLOG
I started my last blog, Waking Up, in December 2020 and then placed it on indefinite hiatus in April 2021 when workstation fatigue finally caught up with me. The impetus for the blog drew heavily on Seth Godin’s The Practice. Responding to his prompts, I had commited to writing and posting on a weekly schedule within constrained project parameters: post a first draft OR a final draft OR a podcast five days a week, and spend no more than 1 hour per day! I did it to create a practice, a habit, and to force myself to just publish and keep moving rather than polishing and agonizing over the details. If I wrote a rough draft … I had to post it! In rough draft form! Lord, that was hard, but it forced me to get over some of my heavy perfectionism.
Recording audio for the posts was an early addition. I enjoy listening more than reading most days, so it was for people like me more than anything else. Most but not all of the posts have audio. I have, however, I deleted the embeds from the written posts. This happened recently, after I listened back to them, cringed, and hit delete! (This is a bad habit of mine.) Fortunately, the podcast is still available on Spotify and most podcast outlets except for Apple under the name “Waking Up” (links below).
The written blog has been archived.
Waking Up Podcast
Listening back through the archive made we want to edit and make changes. That 1 hour max restriction was good for me but left some rough edges to polish.
But mostly, I’m inspired anew, partly courtesy a very thought-provoking interview with the daughter of one of my heroes, Richard Tarnas. Becca Tarnas’ interview from 2016, “Talking Tolkein and Jung,” on the Rune Soup podcast, was recorded while she was still working on her doctoral dissertation (at CIIS, my alma mater) on the space of enchanted imagination shared by both Tolkein’s and Jung’s Red Books. In her ideas, I found both answers to my confusions, and the courage and inspiration to rededicate myself to the work that’s been trying to claw its way out of me for decades! The self-doubt has been particularly heavy of late as I’ve struggled with workstation fatigue.
Becca highlighted some of Tolkein’s own hindrances (a meandering attention seemingly fueled by self-doubt and overthinking), in a way that felt so reassuring. In fact, she pointed out that The Lord of the Rings might never have been written and published were it not for C. S. Lewis, who sat with Tolkein for hours and hours over the years, encouraging him on like a beacon of elegiac enthusiasm.
Most of all, I found a way to understand Aran, my other-dimensional Teacher, who plays a role in both The Waking Up blog and my whole process here. He will have a much more prominent role moving forward.
“Angel with the Sponge,” by Antonio Giorgetti, designed by Bernini for the Ponte Sant’Angelo in Rome.
A Little More Free (Podcast)
My nearly yearlong forray into unscripted long format podcasting with a family friend, from February to December 2021, was a lot of fun, and also mortifying to look back at (thus I’ve taken down all the episodes except the interviews and a couple special episodes – See? This is a habit of mine. Working on it). If you’re interested, you can get kind of an overview of our podcast and the guest roster by listening to the last episode, Episode 34 – The Last Episode.
